COVID-19 on Mental Health: Quarantined and Unemployed

Being quarantined is physical isolation that traps you inside your head; being unemployed is mental isolation that cuts you out from society.

FaceTime is not my cup of tea, but on occasions, I’d give way to my friend’s relentless nagging.

She: If my dating life could last beyond this lockdown, then you know…! *snapped her fingers*

Me: Uh-huh. You’ve been on 3 dates before all these went down, right? And the last date was a Netflix and chill minus the action…? *eyebrow raised*

She: Okay, I made it clear that it’s not happening until we are serious. *suddenly serious*

Me: You are amazing. I am so proud. *genuinely impressed*

She: Thank you, but who knows how long this lockdown will last. You know I worked for a non-profit? They let go two designers and if they continue to cut, it’d be my friend next.

Me: What? I thought they’d try to keep their employees at times like this.

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I was reminded of the time when I stayed home for 5 days straight without seeing or talking to another soul.

It may not sound like much but the aftermath of self-isolation scared me into a frenzy.

I couldn’t stop doubting myself with this prolonged unemployment.

Leaving my comfortable life behind and moving back to Toronto was what I wanted.

4 months later, still unemployed, I wasn’t so sure anymore. Still lying in bed, my first thought this morning made me realized the seriousness of my condition.

“I wish I could continue to sleep and never wake up”

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Determined to get myself out of this downward spiral, I became a regular customer at the Starbucks across the road.

It was not easy.

Something as simple as getting up became a task to overcome. Persuading myself to put one foot in front of the other, I gave myself a mental pat on the head when I finally made it out the door.

“This is merely temporary. You will get better. Now just one step forward.”

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